People matter. So here I am, one person, sharing my life in hopes that it might make a difference in the life of someone else.
I always go to other people. For advice. For wisdom. For counsel. For reassurance. And I realize, that those things aren’t always bad things. But if I am constantly going to others, am I ever really going to myself?
You’re not always going to be surrounded or comforted by others.
You won’t be happy if you always expect and seek out your own contentment in and from others.
You have to learn to be quiet by yourself. To listen to your thoughts. To figure out what’s in your heart. To love yourself.
That sounds so clique…but I have come to believe that it is true.
If I write down my thoughts or sit in nature or pray or even just sit in silence with my eyes clothes and repeat a phrase or word in my head to silence myself, I find that afterwards I have some sort of peace.
It’s terrifying that no one REALLY understands me. And being a person that loves to talk and listen, I try to express myself as best I can and hear and feel as much as I can…but I have come to realize that if I continue to expect others to console and totally and truly understand me than I am only setting myself up to be disappointed and put an unfair strain on our relationship.
So, I realize.